Findings along the way.

Some thoughts in the past couple of weeks. It's hard to type (spell) when on Chemo.
The fruit of the vine has a lot of antioxidants,
Antioxidants ward off free radicals,
I'm getting to old to be a free radical,
Therefore I believe I should drink more wine.

Ever try to count the hairs on your head?
Don't there is no lot of them and when you touch them they will let you know they are about to fall out.
Most food taste like chewing paper only on certain days.
You get a choice constipation or diarrhea only certain days.
This adventure is worth every minute. Just to see a different perspective of life not yet encountered.

The best of all this I consider myself very fortunate not to have all the hard side effects.
This was possible I believe because 1. good doctors. 2. Supporting Family and Friends 3. Humor of self.
And most of all A compassionate Lord and Savior,
These words are most life giving: "I am not worthy but only say the word and I shall be healed"
My wish for those that surround me that you search out the meaning of these powerful words.

That's all for now don't want to strain the grey matter. I think it may be leaving with the hair.
Love You

Mending and Mortality

While on the mend the one has time to think. (this could be dangerous) First I'll share mending there are times humor and times of pain. To my surprise so many people take time to call visit send a message just to let you know they care. This brings to mind on how I have shared my time with others (a bucket list item). The mind says get going their are things to do. Patience is not a strong suit. The body says I'm out of gas, big tug of war. So you take a physical break but the mind is in full speed you have all this time to think. It's not the drugs I quit them a week ago. Questions,answers,and decisions are needed as this journey unfolds some are within control and some are not. This gives me an anxious feeling like wondering what lies down the road and how to play the hand that has been dealt. It's not worry. As I already know what ever the journey brings all will work out. Life is based on a couple simple facts. You are born, you live,and you die. Pretty basic life cycle all living things have to face this reality. This physical cycle will happen. The question in my mind now becomes what else is there. What about the spiritual unknown the life after this physical cycle. My what a trip that is going to be. This finite mind is unable to comprehend the Infinite so I have to lay this mystery at the feet of my faith belief that it will all work out.

A QUICK RIGHT TURN

In the past few days along my journey I've encountered a detour. The smooth road I've been on is in need of repair. Choices need to be made and new paths are to be taken. What will I see? What will I learn? What do I use as a Map or a Guide? So many questions and a lot of unknowns. It's good to have family and faith rapping their arms around me for comfort. I feel very blessed and thankful.

If all goes awry what is the positive side? One positive that comes to mind is that I win,I win the race on the journey to destiny. We will all run but I'll have the advantage of  arriving sooner than later. It's not the male bravado not fearing but it could be the fear of living past of considered usefulness that is a remote thought lurking in the recesses of awareness.

Am I ready? I hope so. The Plan is not mine as it is a Divine Plan and I believe I'm truly part of it. Life is a learning adventure.

The FALL of SUMMER

Can you smell the frost? Taste the red yellow and browns of the maple,aspen and oak. See flavors of ripened apples, grapes,melons and corn. Can you hear the sky with darker shades of gray. The senses tell not yet of course but the early morning signs are there. The need to savor the summer lingers the special times that reach the inner parts of heart and bring a flood of memories that are held so close. Not always shared but enjoyed and kept in that private place. The cycle of the four seasons in thought can be likened to birth,growth,understanding and dying. All things in their time. What a Divine Plan it is. Celebrate!!!!!

Contemplate

Random thoughts I think not. Millions of bits of data,ideas,thoughts,questions and what ifs. Are these choice??? Logic,reason or critical thinking is based on what is learned.What about perception or intuition??? Who or what instills these in ones mind? When inspired by the five senses we accept it as human understanding. What about the six or seven sense are these accepted or dismissed for lack of understanding. Blind faith is not blind. Not all questions have answers. (at least in the human sense) Take the gift time and contemplate Creation.

Seasons

Time allows me to listen to learn to enjoy the seasons...... not those of the year but those of life. Time gives the chance read and hear my children as they move thru their seasons. Part of my season is to review and reflect on memories of seasons past. (It's a older thing I would guess.) Joys and good times are many these I try to hold close. Regrets are few I try to accept them. There are different season yet to come. More to listen,to learn, to enjoy and to accept. Seasons renew.

Clear vision>>>only sight???

For the times it is hard to focus not only the eyes but the mind. Minutia clouds the thought process. Little problems like plugged sinuses and a persistent cough not only are bothersome but fog logic and reason. Medications also help the mind to wonder in multi disciplined directions. A clear head is truly a blessing allowing to expand your awareness outward to others versus self centered needs. Maybe these hazy times are needed to enjoy the ones that are not!!!!!